20 something years ago I came across an anthology of writings from allegedly ‘insane’ writers. Out of the entire volume one text stood out, an excerpt from Mary Maclane’s memoir. It moved me so much I looked for the complete text for a few years (this was pre internet, the days of hunting and gathering). When I did find it, the book was titled, ‘Tender Darkness’. This text, written in 1901, by a 19 year old woman was a text that soared, flew, took deep dives into abysses and crevasses, laid waste to cities before flying into the heavens again. She wrote frankly and eloquently about bisexuality, about stealing, about her desire for ‘the Devil’.
At the time, I was moving from being an ardent fan and researcher of art to a producer of art. It was an unholy trinity, which threw me into this like an unwanted child, for what demons have time for child rearing! This Trinity was Genesis Breyer P-orridge of Throbbing Gristle with the slogan, ‘The Future of Music is with Non Musicians Derek Jarman, whose super 8 films called me to make my own, and Mary Maclane, who would be the focus of my first film.
I am glad she is among us again, and maybe I did my own Luciferian duty in evoking her. As the post I just ‘shared’ by Michael Brown says, MUCH more information is now being published.
Here is a version of my own film, with Mary portrayed by Heidi Follin, text read by Susanne Sachsse. I recently found all 13 reels of super 8 and maybe one day a longer film will be re edited.